Good and Bad

It's been a pretty good week so far! I've for sure been eating more than I'm used to :( Whomp whomp. But, there are two reasons for this: 1. I am with a family that I work for, and am expected to eat at the same times as them, and 2. we exercise like crazy. Tons of bike riding, walking, pushing the stroller, swimming and giving out plenty of piggyback rides! Today has been pretty hard; I'm having a slight mental break down from the lack of privacy and down time, but, obviously, I finally have a minute to myself. Enjoying a glass of white wine (I deserve the calories, and need the alcohol), and catching up on some stuff for my other job. It just never ends! I'm frustrated that there is no scale here, but hoping that my number will be down by the time I get home. Tomorrow I'm going to try to eat a little less, because I have a date with an awesome girl on Wednesday! Dating is fun. Good luck to every one today. Stay strong.  

Great week ahead!

I'm so excited! Going to Washington DC for the week for work! There will be lots of bike riding, and walking around the city, and chasing my beautiful little one. I'm a nanny... It's going to be a lot of fun, and so much activity, I'm sure to lose some weight! It has been one of the hardest few weeks of my life, but I am determined to turn things around for myself. Twenty-two is going to be the best year of my life, I know it! Naked juice in hand, I have a lot of work and packing to do today. Let's get to it!

Big Day

Game day! I'm so excited to see the Sox play today; Boston is the most beautiful city in the world (although I have left a piece of my heart in Klaipeda, and a piece in Paris), and any day I get to spend there is a good day. Waking up with a sugar free Red Bull, and Power Garden Naked Juice. It's gonna be an amazing day, and no matter what, I'm going to love it!! Go SOX!

Under 700

I'm going to go the next seven days with every day under 700 calories. I'll plan out what to eat every day so that I don't go over by accident. That will mean no alcohol, which will be the hardest, because I really do drink too much. I don't think that is 100% my fault though; when you go out with friends, that's what you do- you go out for a drink. Tomorrow, Thursday is the only day I will let myself go over 700, because I'm going to a Red Sox game for my birthday! There will be drinking, but I won't eat anything too bad because I started vegan again. Yesterday was the first day I ate vegan since graduation, and the first day I didn't get a stomach ache or throw up. Went to the doctor's last week, and she wants me to see a stomach doctor. I'm not sure if my stomach aches are because of what I've been eating, or more psychological. I for sure have food anxiety, but there might also be an actual physical problem. I'll find out soon. If there is a problem, it might be related to why it is so hard for me to lose weight. We'll see! Until then I'm going to stay strong. I've gained some weight, and my first goal right now is to get back down to 170. I want to do this by the end of July.

Now, here are a few thinspos to keep you motivated and encouraged!

Long month, so long.

Well, this has been a long, crazy, and unexpected month. Fuck it, just fuck it.

Turns out happily dating someone is bad for weight loss.

Getting dumped, however, proves to be quite effective.

Turned 22, cried over stupid ex girlfriend, totaled my car in bad accident.

Fuck it.

Just fuck it.

Now that I have no more distractions, it's time to be serious. I know, I know, I've said it before, but this time I mean it. Expect many posts in the months to come. Moving to Orlando in three month. Plan to lose 20 pounds before then. I think that is reasonable and healthy. 

Post Grad

Well, graduation was full of fatty, nasty foods, tons of family, and a large amount of money and gifts. I gave myself a week off from dieting, and then got my period, so ate enough for a small army as well as all the children in Africa, but I'm still on a post graduation high, so I haven't felt guilty about it. Meeting a new and wonderful girl isn't hurting either. I'm looking forward to a summer of eating right, working out (finally back to having a country club, thank God), and finding new love.

Also, I did not make my goal of 165 for graduation. I'm disappointed, but not letting it get me down. I start every day new, and I will get to my ultimate goal, and I will love myself so much. One day at a time. 

My, What Nice Legs You Have